February 16, 2012

  • 4 months...

    So, yeah... Four months from now I'll be turning 30. Wow... 4 months. I was staring at the calendar just a bit ago and realized what sort of time frame I have now. I started a journey with at least one destination in mind: my 30th birthday. I wanted to be a bit better than when I started. In a way, I am. I've finally acknowledged things I've been denying for the last, oh, say, 7 years at least. I'm still figuring out how to deal with some those issues along that path. There is still more work to be had, but at least I'm working on it.

    One of the main issues I wanted resolved before my birthday was my fun acquainted with my back. I finally seem to have the right doctors who are just as perplexed as I am with it and want to not only find the problem but actually treat the problem. My primary doc understands my frustration with being a druggie, but doesn't want me to ignore the (unfortunate) needs of the situation. (Bad things can happen if you stop some meds suddenly. Since I've been taking a narcotic, daily, for about 4 years, it's not just something to thumb my nose at; steps have to be taken properly.) While I had some success when I first started this new journey, there is still evidence that has been presented that prevents a complete cleansing. It sucks, but I think that that path isn't quite ready to be crossed. It wasn't a complete failure. For me, just knowing that the path was plausible gave me hope that when the physical body is healed, the poison can be extracted as well. There's still four months to go; lots can happen in between then and now! So I'm still hopeful I can accomplish quite a bit before then.

    I didn't do much today; I feel like a complete bum! I did wake up before 1000, so at least I scored a point there. I was going to start that book today that I was talking about last night, but got caught up in another and didn't want to put it down until the last page. So tomorrow for sure will begin day 1 of Calling in "The One." And tomorrow is Yogalates day... :) I don't feel as sore as I did Tuesday night, so maybe my body is more acceptable this week than I thought. If I feel pretty good after tomorrow, I may be able to add something else on the days I'm not doing Yogalates. That would be awesome! :) (And maybe I could start a gradual reduction of medication too...)

    Well, guess I'll stop rambling now... I don't really have anything new or interesting today. I'll let you get back to the more important things in life now!

    Until next time... CIAO!