March 25, 2012
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Growth from within
So, yeah… Sorry I’ve been a little MIA; I have no excuse. Other than I have no life and didn’t want to bore you in regaling my Doctor Who and Sanctuary marathon… Can’t wait for the new seasons now!
My back is still doing its own thing. My right hip is starting to bother me. But, of course, there is nothing wrong with me. I’m just imagining the pain. (Yeah, one of those days… sorry for the negativity!) Just taking my meds and trying not to eat all the ice cream in the house. (That’s my real kryptonite: ice cream. I start getting a Latina booty and body when I eat too much ice cream…)Tomorrow I go to the dentist for the first time since my discharge, back in 2005. This should be a really interesting visit! I’m going to ask the dentist how my meds could possibly harm my dental health. There’s a big history in my family of bad teeth and gums. My bio-thing actually had something wrong (with the gums I think) and between that and a really bad accident, he’s had dentures since he was 16. Then my mom was in a dentist chair from the time she was 5 to about 14, 16 (something like that) because of bad teeth. I’ve lost count of how many root canals and crowns she’s had. So I try really hard to take care of my teeth. My first visit to a dentist kind of scared me into taking care of my teeth. I remember looking at some of those pictures that they had in the waiting room of diseases of the mouth and lack of care. I didn’t like those pictures. I made the decision right there that I would start taking better care of my teeth… I’ve not been able to afford anything since I left the military. I didn’t take advantage of the dentist when I was in England with my ex since my main concern was trying to get my back better.
Well, I just started week 6 today of my book! That means I’m in the home stretch now… I didn’t really expect it to take me through so much of me and give me such a journey as it has. I mean, I expected it to help me make some peace within, but I didn’t expect it to really take me by the hand and show me how. I’m really glad I decided to take a gander at it! I feel more solid than I have in a really long time. I know I usually give a short recap of the day’s lesson and the exercise that goes with it, but tonight, I’m a little tired and can’t think at the moment. I will leave you with a quote that was in the book a couple weeks back that I think pretty much sums up this journey for me…
Growth is a detox process, as our weakest, darkest places are sucked up to the surface in order to be released… often it is not a change of partners but rather a change in perception that delivers us to the love we seek. ~Marianne Williamson
Until next time… CIAO!
