February 29, 2012
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Eating crow…
So, yeah… I’m going to have to eat my words tonight. Took my trip down to Tulsa yesterday and, for once, everything fell into place!! I think a lot of had to do with my introduction: Hi, I’m Jayme. I called yesterday; I’m from Kansas… The chick’s eyes kind of did one of those (HOLY CRAP) looks. And while I was waiting for my file to print, we chatted. She really isn’t an idiot; just overwhelmed. (I mean, wow… small office and space, but requests everywhere and lots of other stuff!) I’m still exhausted and it keeps getting worse the longer I’m up. These bones just ain’t made for day trips like that any more!
But the plus side of it is that I have my records and X-rays from Oklahoma! 
I’m going to write a thank you note to the lady that helped me and even put a word in with the Patient Advocate there on a job well done. (I’m sure they only get to see veterans when they are disgruntled… which reminds me; I need to do that for my own Patient Advocate here in Topeka that helped me get my Scoliosis specialist!) Sometimes I don’t mind being proved wrong, especially in the good array of life…So, day 10 of my 49-day love journey dealt with “Releasing Toxic Ties.” It basically calls for you to let go of those relations you have or had (either with family, friends, or loves) that can really block you from fully enjoying life by draining the life out of you (sometimes quite literally). It’s definitely a different view when I was looking at some of the relations from my past. It’s weird when you step aside and really look at your exchanges with people who have entered and exited your life. (Or some that have entered and refused to leave; the makings of a very toxic situation and energies wasted or drained…)
Day 11, today, was “Renegotiating Old Agreements,” spoken or non. It takes a look at some of the “deals” you’ve done with someone and how some of those good intentioned deals could really be stopping you from realizing your full potential in love and life. Like one of those “If I’m not married or with anyone by xx years, let’s get together” to your best girl/guy friend. Sometimes we have good intentions, like knowing that we have a backup plan takes the stress out of actually putting ourselves out there for our real other. Reality is, though, we are doing more damage by not freeing up that energy and good thoughts. It’s rather thought provoking and interesting…
Well, that’s pretty much it… I’m starting to have some difficulty keeping my eyes open…
Until next time… CIAO!
