March 20, 2012

  • Give and get

    So, yeah... Has anyone seen my motivation lately? I've seemed to misplace mine and I've torn my bedroom apart looking for it. I slept in until 11 this morning! I don't know what the crap is going on... It's really annoying. The last time I slept so long was when I was in England, before I started piecing together that I could be pregnant. But I definitely know that ain't the case here! (Just trust me on this...) It's been rainy and dreary out, but that doesn't usually have much pull on me. Maybe I overdid it a little Friday and Sunday and my body is telling me how it feels about that... *sigh* If you happen to find my motivation, would you send it back my way? I'm not liking this one bit...

    In other news, I got my decision letter from Social Security letting me know I'm not disabled after all! Whew! Glad I'm just imagining the spasms and pain and all... They told me that I don't have any restrictions on movement and that I experience "some discomfort." I'm so glad they cleared that up for me... I was beginning to wonder what my problem is! (Don't worry; I will be appealing this decision and I do have legal representation to help me through this wonderful fun.) I'll bet that they made their decision based upon my last rating with the VA, who claims I'm only 10% disabled. Wouldn't have a clue why so many veterans get frustrated...

    On to more exciting matters; day 31! It was all about remembering how to receive. Some of us in the world have a pretty good want to give, give, give, and have a time receiving for one reason or another. Today was to remember that there's a two-way street between you and anyone you have interaction with, be it friends, family, colleagues, strangers, etc. Look at it like this... You're driving around an unfamiliar area/town. You see a convenience store and decide that the 2-hr "scenic route" has run its course. You brave up and go inside to ask for directions finally. Clerk looks up, can smell the confusion and frustration on you. You exchange hellos and here comes your give: asking for directions. And you receive: directions.

    Give-get. Simple, right? It's easy to see in the example, but the challenge is applying it to your daily routine, be it a relationship with your other, your boss, your kids. Sometimes it can be just asking for some help with dishes, or dinner, or asking the boss if they could add a person or two to help you out on a big project. It doesn't have to be way out there requests. They can be just little things that could help you out some way. Little by little, the joys of a fulfilled relation will begin to blossom. I'll leave you with a piece that I found at the beginning of today's lesson.

    Someone who does not know how to receive love will, of course, end up feeling unloved. We then grow  bitter or cynical, making us less and less attractive, keeping love at a distance, and bolstering our belief that a loving universe isn't really that loving in our case. -Marianne Williamson (Enchanted Love)

    Well, I think that's it for today. Until next time... CIAO!